I'm moving out!

Heya you guys ( and girls ) ! Just want to let all of you know that... I'm moving out ! Yeah, to a new blog, lol! I'm now in the process of getting Photoshop so I guess I'll be using the template from Blogger ( which looks kinda pretty too ).

Anyway I won't be posting anything on this blog anymore, this will be the last post!
You can start moving all your butts over to http://reenee-k.blogspot.com !

Those who wants to link me let me know and I'll link you guys back!

Muacks!

September 16th 2008.

I know it's really lame to put the date up as the title of the blog post but I'm really too lazy to think of anything catchy. Or cool. Or anything un-lame. Seriously, I don't even know what I'm going to write, I like going with the flow. Random thoughts. You know, jump into the pool and then see whether there's water or not =D

Anyway, I just want to wish one of my good friends, Ee Lin a Happy 20th Birthday! I guess you're probably in Singapore studying your ass off, while I'm still bumming here in Penang! Well, I've known you for ages! We've been in the same class from standard one...up to Form 3 I guess. That's pretty long! And we're neighbours, sort of! I wish you all the best in life, dear tikus!

Well speaking of Singapore, let me just blog about the my trip there like, ages ago. Since I'm so bloody free now I guess I might as well post up some pictures, hehe. You know, the thing I don't like about posting pictures up is because it takes so bloody long just to do it! And yeah, I don't bother much about putting up a watermark because 1) I did not edit anything [lazy ma] and 2) I'm no pro photographer and 3) Probably nobody wants my pictures anyway.


Okay, so this is McDonalds, LOL!
In Singapore, they have this burgerthingie called McGriddles for breakfast which everyone in Singapore ( like almost everyone ) said that it's really, really good. Like omgitssogoodyoushouldgotryititssogood! I was like... "Okay..."
And it sucks! In my opinion. Because the damn bun was made from pancake mix and it's filled with some maple syrup or honey which made it so sickly sweet! Imagine some sweet pancake and the meat pattie with egg and cheese together...it's just so wrong!

So this is Eddy & I at... Vivo City I think. Vivocity. Vivo City. VivoCity. Okay, whatever. We were outside this Japanese dollar store, Daiso which is totally awesome! Everything (almost everything) for only 2 dollars each! Real crazy, like...super fantastic place to buy all the japanese stuff you like lor! Like bento boxes for only 2 dollars, wtf I saw some people selling the same thing on Ebay for like 10 dollars and without the shipping cost yet. They also sell japanese snacks and stuff like those yummy tomato juice and vegetable juice ... 2 cans for 2 dollars! Do we have Daiso in Malaysia?


This is the view on top of Vivocity. Very pretty.

We went for lunch at Marche... it was expensive, yet nothing to really shout about. This is what they called Rosti? Just some fried shredded potato with sour cream. Don't really like it.


Forgot what we did but we somehow ended up in Suntec I think. Had NewYorkNewYork for dinner. That's my salmon =D and it was good. Price is kinda expensive, lets say, around TGI's price but it's worth it!

He had this creamy pasta thingie with spare ribs. I like the pasta but I feel that the ribs kinda got in the way. Because the marinade is sweet and I don't know, just weird with the cream sauce. Still good though but you have to eat it fast if not you'll feel damn jelak after it gets a little cold!

We both went to the zoo later at night to catch the night safari. It was...interesting.
I think I went at the wrong time because there are thousands and thousands of Indians there. Like, everywhere. They're in front of me in line, they're behind me in line and they're on both sides of me too. I'm not being racist but those Indians from India I guess...are one of the rudest people I've seen. We got to sit on this little train thingie that took us around the zoo to look at the animals and the indians were so noisy even when we were all supposed to keep quiet so we don't scare/ disturb the animals but hell no, they got even noisier and noisier when they got excited. In the end, some angmoh uncle scolded them, hahaha! Yes, I was very pleased and was secretly thanking him in my heart.

So no pictures because everything I took ended up looking like this...


Wtf, so no pictures.

Anyway there was this group of Japanese students there too. No hotties, sadly. But their uniforms are damn nice. Kawaii ( inserts this --> ^_^ )

The next day we went to Underwater World Singapore in Sentosa. Yeah, it was more like UnderIndianWater World Singapore. Nothing against Indians but they were bloody rude lor! There was this petting corner and I was standing there when this little indian girl around... 5 or 6 years old, shoved me and my hand away and took my place can you believe it?!??? I couldn't either, I was beyond shocked!

Taking the train thingie to Underwater World.

Took a photo with a crab.
Lost the mood to take anymore photos because whenever I try to pose for one, one group of Indians come stand beside me. Like everyone in the whole family lor, mother father grandfather grandmother and kids wtf and they just sat there after that.

We went for the dolphin show too after that but I don't think I'll be posting any pictures of that.

I was sitting on a bench when a swarm of Indians came and stood right in front of me and everyone else! There was this granny who scolded them but they still stood there, unwilling to move. Spoil my mood!

Alright, no more photos! I have some totally random ones that I took these few months but I'll see what I'm going to do about it!

P/S : I've been sleeping at around 2+ in the morning and waking up at 11 +. I think I should start sleeping early, lol.

Random. Just can't think of any title for this, wtf.

You know, I really can't stand people who judge me when they don't even know me. Okay, like can't stand in a really I bloody hate it kinda way. Like, ooh, look at the way she dresses, that's just so slutty [ example but I don't bloody care about the slutty remark anyway if its true, lol ] Oh yeah, I also bloody hate people that pretends to be all nice to you but then really hates you...you know that kinda thing? Last time when I was in secondary school there was this girl who was like, civil to me. I mean our relationship was okay, we do talk and no one could really tell there was anything between us. And then I found out that she actually hates me. Don't know whether hate is too harsh but she doesn't like me. Then when I knew I was like, okay...I still don't know what I fucking did to her to make her dislike me but I thought I wasn't even close to her to make her you know, find something about me that she didn't like. Tsk tsk.

Its just so frustrating to not know what the heck you did and why some people just bloody hate you and yet don't want to leave you alone. And I don't understand how they face the people they hate everyday if they hate them so much. Hmm...

Lazy to continue already. Got to go get ready for tonight's gathering with ex-classmates.


by the way, Oon Ling i missed u =(

29th August 2008.

You know, sometimes when you feel like your life is nothing but shit and that everything and everyone around you doesn't matter that much...and then some small little things made you realize that hey, life's good. I'm fine. I'm happy. Not as happy as I would like myself to be but I'm happy. My family's alright. There might be some problems around the house but I guess that's normal for everyone else. Some families have financial issues. Some families have relationship issues. I guess my family's alright...we have enough to spend...and I guess the problem we're facing right now made us stuck ourselves together more. I can't and I won't say what it is though but it has definately strengthen our ties.

Sometimes, I feel as if I'm the outcast of the family. Not to say outcast like its something bad, it isn't. I don't mean it that way. But I guess I am...the black sheep of the family. Okay, I refuse to be called sheep. I prefer puppies. Or kittens. So, I'm the black kitten of the family!
Anyway, I realized that both my siblings tend to be more similar to each other compared to me . You know, my sister is this smarty pants that doesn't do much studying at all but always get better grades than me. I suppose you can say...she's smart...or you can say that she's lucky. Still, she totally hates leaving home, I don't understand why. When we were younger I really love shopping ( and still do ) but she will just complain and complain about her legs aching, not to mention, she buys ugly clothes, hahaha! It just takes plenty of effort to ask her to get out of the house. She hates travelling as well. I asked her why did she stay in Penang rather than go somewhere else to study and she said she prefers the comfort of home. And that's when I rolled my eyes.

My brother stays home all the time too. He's like stucked or glued to the pc the moment he wakes up until he goes to bed. We're close but not really close because he doesn't share that much with anyone. And I guess we don't really have much in common, he grew up too fast. When my sis and I were younger, we have each other. I guess my brother can't really relate to us, one thing because we're both girls and another thing...the age difference. Not to mention he's not the socializing type of person.

As for me, I guess it only makes sense that I'm completely different from the both of them since I'm the middle child. I got hand-me-downs from my sis...she did everything first since she's older and I kept getting exam results which is worse than hers...My brother is the only son in the family so you know, all the spoiling and coddling goes to him. I'm just the sibling who gets forced to take sides when they argue or when they're on good terms, gets ganged upon.
But I love being myself. People say that I like to talk...a lot. Maybe I do. I find it very easy to share my thoughts, I don't know why. Some people say I like to think too much. Do I like to think too much? I think I'm thoughtful =)

I like to go places and I never really thought of...settling. I mean, of course I would love to have a husband and 4 kids, haha but whenever people talked about me getting married I would get all...I don't know how to explain it but something like, "Me? Married? Soon? Impossible!" And I really, really hate it when people tell me " Aiya, you and Eddy so long already, can get married lor." Ugh. I don't want the lengh of a relationship to be a factor in my decision to get married. It doesn't play a part. Sure, we are comfortable with each other but I didn't choose to meet him 5 years ago, get what I mean? I might fall madly in love with someone I met for...let's say 4 months ago and marry him can't I?

Oh well, I actually didn't plan to blog anything of the above but I guess I got carried away.

23rd August 2008.

It's funny that I lost track of the date. Anyway, updates updates! I'm ashamed to admit that I'm a blogger. I once was. You could say that I was a regular. Now? Let's just say to those people reading my blog ( if there's still anyone left except for the weirdos that just leaves their links on my chatbox ) that an update from me is even an rarer occurrence than...lets see...a meteor shower. Hmm somehow I'm feeling the blogging mood today =D Probably because it's a fucking Saturday and I'm stuck at home with nothing else better to do. Oh God, my life sucks.

Anyway, I went and got myself a laptop during PC Fair! Is that super syiok or what? Actually I would never dreamt of myself actually possessing one. Still, I'll be leaving in October to KL so I'll need one. Right? Right? And I got a BenQ =D He's super fine <3>

Okay, Eddy just left for KL on the 20th. He's taking Diploma in IT and his classes starts on this coming Monday. I heard that his room mate is this super rich kid and that he brought lots of Evian water with him, haha. I was like...wtf? All the rich kids I know drink boiled tap water leh! I also heard he's gonna get a mini fridge, omg! I can't wait to meet that kid =D

Sien, out of updates already. How come I have so many things I wanna say but it ended up being so short?!? Oh yeah. I'll be leaving on Oct 7th, a day after my birthday. I might be doing some kind of party/gathering/farewell for myself, hohoho. I might be paying for the food, I might not, we might be eating out, I might be cooking or we shall hold a pot luck, don't know yet. Somehow it's just damn weird to ask people out to have a farewell for yourself and then ask them to bring their own food. So, its better if you people just organize one for me, haha! I'm just kinda worried no one would want to come see me off, sob!

Anyway, the most important thing...remember my presents! And cake!!! This year, I will still want to eat some kind of vanilla cake with fresh cream and peaches! Still my favourite cake of all time <3<3>

So here's a list of things I need/ I want/ I crave at the moment (heck maybe I will crave something else by the time it is October.)

1) First thing that comes to mind - a luggage bag, wtf, why am I so aunty???
Anyway, it'll be ridiculous to give me a luggage bag on the 6th of October because I'll be leaving on the 7th and will already have packed everything up anyway. It has to be pink!!! (the pretty baby pink kind, not the hualala hot pink XD )

2) Undergarments
So aunty again, wtf. Still, I'm gonna need lots so that I don't need to wash them everyday :3 It's better you bring me shopping because I'm quite sure you're going to pick the ones that are super ugly. Unless you're a girl.

3) New wardrobe!
Enough said. Bring me shopping already! (I want shoes too!)

4) Internet connection for 3 years.
The hostel doesn't have internet in their rooms! So get me internet connection so I can lie down while blogging/webcam/msn/playing online games/flirting and yet eat cup noodles, scratch my ass while sitting kangkang. I want, I want >.<>

5) Money. Cash.
In desperate need of cash!!!

6) Coastal Scents Makeup Palette!
And I want their brushes too!

7) Clean sea, good food, cute guys ( am I asking too much? )

8) A return plane ticket for me to go somewhere with clean sea, good food and cute guys.

9) Lots and lots of new bags! (I've been eyeing a few already. If you're planning to get me anything brand name, let me know first, haha so I can decide whether or not I'll prefer a Coach bag or a Louis Vuitton <3

10) A new handphone. Mine damn rosak already. I keep dropping it and now the battery is a bit cuckoo.

11) A headphone for my lappie. No cheap ones please, haha.

12) Ran out of things already,

13) I know! Lots and lots and lots of books! There's just so many books I want to read but too cheapskate to buy! It'll be great when I'm dead bored in KL.

14) A shelf to store all the books you guys got me =D

15) A car? :3




It's been a while since I've met up with my friends already. Will make a date to see you guys soon! Actually, I've got lots of photos but I'm just too darn lazy to post them up, so damn mafan!

Something to think about.

The funny thing about life is how you thought that you know someone and then realized that you don't know that someone at all. Have you ever experienced this situation? Maybe I'm just being in an emo state but looking at pictures of old friends whom I've lost contact in Friendster, high school friends, friends of friends, high school seniors and juniors...and then some. I've known some of them, I know when's their birthday, we've shared some fun times together...and then, no more. Most of them continue with their own lives after high school and the only way I know what's happening is by looking at their photos in Friendster, reading their profiles... "Oh you're in Oz now? That's great." Really, nothing more than that.

Maybe it was me who really didn't a damn about how they are getting on. And I guess that people change. Seriously, I don't think I am the same person I was like, 7 years ago. A part of me is still the same girl. Idealistic...a dreamer, a romantic. The other part however...well let's just say I'm less naive. Still optimistic though but something in me has changed. Can it be the bitter feeling I feel towards life?

And now I wonder whether those dear to me felt the change.

Randommy post at 3.18 am

Don't really know whether randommy really exists but its just so cute! Anyway, life has been a full stop for me since the day I finished schooling so nothing much to update on...I've been doing the usual...play, eat, sleep and watch movies..ahaha. Basically everyone is off to school by now and I'm like, still around and I really wanna go school too but the intake's all the way in August for communications and October for business. Yep, still in an internal conflict about the course I want to take. August will be too soon, October will be too late. And it sucks to have to start school 2 days after my birthday! Excited? Very. Anxious? Absolutely. Scared? Definately. Heard that a few of my ex-school mates are going KL's UCSI. Still, they're just people I see around school, not from my class. Also heard that someone I totally detest is going there as well. Let's just hope his mum doesn't need to bring him food anymore.

I actually wanna post this really long post but I'm just so freaking sleepy!






















ok la -_- don't want to post d

4th of July

My internet connection just went cuckoo. I can’t go online and there’s nothing else better to do, so here I am blogging this on Microsoft Word. I plan to post this up later, if I ever get to finish this =)

So here I am…I have so many things I wanna talk about, all my thoughts this past few weeks, I just wish that there is something like a thought converter or something which anything that crosses your mind will be converted into words in writing so that I don’t need to blog to tell you all the things I want to say. Because I will eventually have something else to do or something else to blog about or possibly, gotten lazy. There were numerous times when I scrapped the thought of blogging about something because it had passed so long.

Anyway, update on my life =)

I’m having this internal conflict about my choice of course to take. I just want to be like those people that always know what they want. When I was young I wanted to be a fashion designer. Then I realized that drawing wasn’t really my forte. I think after that I wanted to be a graphic designer or something. Soon after that I decided that I want to be a teacher. And open a restaurant. A bakery. Have my own bridal shop. Then I was in love with the idea of being a journalist. That was a pretty recent love. I wanted to be a writer with one of the fashion magazines and get lots of free stuff. Makeup. Clothes. Shoes.

And when I realized that I have the potential to write, I wanted to change the world. I wanted to be something more than a journalist with the local newspaper. I wanted to do more than write finance reports or business news. I know how powerful words can be and I wanted to make a difference. And somehow, deep inside, I always know that Mass Communications is meant for me.

Still…

I went to Form 6 and had really no choice. I hate Accounts, til this day and I absolutely detest Maths ( well because I sucked in them when I was in Form 4 and 5 ) I’m rubbish in Malay Language and I love History ( which turned out to be a big mistake because it caused me to get rejected from IPTA but still I will not ever believe that I deserve that fucking grade! ) I took Economics and Business Studies as well. Economics wasn’t something I fancy because I always have trouble with memorizing ( maybe because I always never make an effort to memorize them in the first place ) and Business Studies was a complete blur. I hate no clue what business was all about, what the format is like and how to answer the questions that were given. Needless to say, I flunked Business Studies from the first test onwards =) I got 42 for my first Economics test though but flunked mid terms, the 2^nd test and end year examinations.

We got a new teacher for Economics in Upper Six and he was good. I was super scared of him! Because he likes to call students out to the board to solve questions and you will have to stand if you could not answer them. Economics were always nail-biting, cold sweat sessions for me. Imagine my relief when he picked someone other than me. From the time he took over my class, I struggled to pass the subject so that I would not be the target for future embarrassment. Yeah, I cared –that- much.

Business Studies was full of notes. Lots of them but short and simplified by my teacher. I don’t read any other reference book other than his notes so no wonder I flunked badly. There were points but I just have no clue on how to explain them. For the trials I finally passed my paper, the first time in my sad and sorry life. You could not imagine how elated I was. And to my utter surprise, my Business Studies grade in STPM was my best grade. I bet my teacher was surprised too.

So after a few months…almost a year of not doing any studying, I realized…I really missed Business Studies and Economics! Hell, I could not even believe it myself. Now I’m torn between taking Mass Communications and Business. I guess I’m going with Business. More challenging. And I’m majoring in Marketing, something that I like =) My friends said that they can’t see me doing Business. I can’t see myself writing something for someone else. I write for me and I’m not about to restrict myself. I don’t want to end up being a journalist and not being able to voice out my thoughts. I don’t want to be controlled by politics. I may be a writer though but guess not, I’m not good in writing stories.

Have you ever wondered why there is a sunrise and a sunset? And why do birds fly? Why do the living breathe? And why do we feel? How does love come around? What is our purpose in life? Why do people die? Lots of questions…we keep asking them and waiting for someone to finally answer it. You know I always wondered that maybe, we’re like characters in a SIMS game. Freaky but not impossible, seriously.

And now...taking my first step to the unknown

Okay so I wasn't that disappointed when I found out that almost all of my classmates didn't get a place in local uni. Mean, I know but at least I don't feel that bad. Not that I expected myself to get a place after looking at the disastrous History grade. Oh yeah, I'm going to KL. Soon. Okay. Not so soon. Still soon. Heck, wtf I can't even make a decision.

This Tuesday I'll be going down to KL for a short trip with Eddy, Wei Han and Bae to look around. I'm eyeing a few places already but we shall have to see.

Oh yeah, to my classmate Eng Huat who will be leaving for Sabah soon...I hope you're reading this! I'm going to miss you =( no matter how annoying you are.

Uncertainty...it just tears me apart

Well, I've been kinda emo lately...with everything around me thats happening, so fast and yet so uncertain about what's gonna happen in the future. I've watched everyone change around me and I'm still...me. Which made me kinda..well, emo. I see my friends go off to college, whether it's taking their degree or their diploma, all continuing with their lives and creating new paths for themselves and I'm like, still stuck doing nothing. That kinda suck.

Well, by next week I'll know where I'm heading to, whether or not I get into local U. If I do get an offer, I'll just go with it. Be it Sabah or Sarawak. If not I'll go private in KL. That's my plans for now. Still, it all comes down to me having to wait for the results next week. Anxious-excited, that's what I'm feeling right now. And maybe a bit scared. Worried. Sad. I'm beginning to miss my family and Penang!!! And all my friends, geez. And I thought I'll be fine going off somewhere else. I guess it's time I start to fly, don't you think?

Still have lots of things to finish off here. I wonder if everything's gonna be alright. I wonder how will my life be like in a year. Two years. Three. Okay, if I keep thinking this way nothing will ever, ever happen to me, wtf I like to think too much.

Anyway, good news to you guys, if I do leave for somewhere else...that means I'll be blogging more! Probably because I'll be dead bored and there'll be no one for me to vent to so...I'll be doing a lot of that here =)

Muacks <3